major life changes ahead!

13 Oct

I’m a dreamer.  I always have been.  In some ways that has made my life more difficult, because I have all these ideas about what I want to do with my life.  With so many dreams it’s sometimes difficult to pick one, or to pick one over another.  Most of the time I end up doing nothing, and my dreams stay as just that, dreams.

Until very recently (the past month or so) I have been quite content with my life.  I have a basic data-entry type of job, which while it is boring sometimes, it gives me the freedom to let my over active imagination run wild.  I can be typing away and at the same time be thinking about what flowers I want to plant in my garden, or wondering what is going to happen next in the book I’m reading.
I own my own home, and while it is small, it is mine and I love it.  I pictured myself living there for a very long time.  Making little changes along the way to make it more mine.  I knew the moment I walked into this house that it was the one for me.  I, like most people house shopping, had made a list of things that I would like to have.  Things like a bathroom attached to my bedroom, a nice sized living room, and a big backyard.  This house had them all.  It was even painted in the exact colors that I wanted.
I live in a medium sized town (of about 15,000).  It is a nice mix of both city and country.  I have some great big-city comforts like a Super Walmart, a Kohls and several grocery stores.  But at the same time even though I only live about 8 blocks off of the main street I am completely suburban.  I have a quiet neighborhood while still being just a hop, skip and a jump from shopping.  Right outside of the city limits there is miles and miles of open farm fields with lots of trees scattered around.
I often thought about someday buying some land in the middle of a field and building a house where I could enjoy all that open space.  Have it completely fenced in so that I could have a greyhound and not have to worry about it getting out.

But lately I’ve been thinking about my dreams.  Not just the ones like “if I had a million dollars I would….” but the deep down I hunger for this type of dreams.  The ones that start out with “it would be really nice if….” or “my dream is….” or “what I really want is….”  And rather then just thinking about them (and I think about them alot) I’ve been thinking about ways to make them happen.  What would I really want if I could do anything?  Live anywhere?  Have any job?


One of my big dreams is to live in the woods.  To build a house that is completely surrounded by trees and wildlife.  I love the thought of waking up and finding deer in my backyard.  And being able to sit and watch all the little critters run around.  To be able to go for a walk in my own woods.  To be able to shout and have no one here me.  To not be startled by a car door slamming.
The more I think about it the less I want to live with all this open space.  All these endless miles of corn fields.  Driving a half an hour to work today was a form of torture.  I used to like all those fields of corn, but now it just depresses me.  I want to be around an unending amount of trees.  Not having to worry about farm vehicles on the roads.

Another part of that dream is I want to have a job where I work at home.  I like my job, but I really hate that I have to get dressed and go to work every day.  I would much rather stay home in my jammies and cuddle up to my cats all day.  And the nice thing about working from home is that it doesn’t matter if I’m out in the middle of nowhere.


In order to make that dream real I have to move.  I don’t have to move THAT far, only a couple hours north, but it will still be a big move.  Most of my family is in the lower part of my state where there is big cities and lots of farmland, but on the northern side there is lots of lakes and forests.  My uncle lives up there, and while I haven’t been up to see him in years, going up there as a child I remember being filled with wonder at the scenery.

But a big part of that dream is the wildlife.  I wouldn’t want my land fenced in.  That means no greyhound.  That is a big blow to me.  I’ve thought about having a greyhound for 6 or 7 years.  I was sure this was what I wanted.  And if I stayed around here it would be.  But the idea of a greyhound up there sounds both impractical and even a little bit silly (I can’t really imagine a greyhound bounding through the woods).  But the more I’ve thought about it the more I’m sure that a greyhound just wouldn’t fit in the life I want up there.  I would want a dog that I could let run loose and not worry about them not coming back.  While on one hand this breaks my heart, on the other I’m glad I found this out before I actually got a dog.

I’ve decided I want lots of land.  Somewhere between 10 and 50 acres.  Then I want to build a house.  I don’t want to buy a house again.  I want something that is completely mine.  Mine from the ground up.
Both of those things aren’t cheep, so I’ll have to save up for them.  I don’t want to bury myself in debt just to make this dream happen.  And I know the house I would want to build wouldn’t be cheap.  So I’d rather save up then scrimp and regret it later.
I’ve found a little town that, from what I’ve found on the internet, seems to be really nice.  It is right on the edge of a national forest (which just so happens to be quite similar to my real name).  It only has a population of about 2,000 but it is only 30 minutes away from a city that is bigger and has some nice shopping.

And I’ve been looking at different stay at home jobs.  Something like data entry, or medical transcription.  The bad thing about medical transcription is that most places want some type of schooling (although I think it’s a certificate rather then a degree).  And I sometimes have problems typing what I hear.  If I’m reading it then it isn’t a problem, but sometimes my ear-to-fingers connection isn’t there.  So that kind of takes that off the list.  But data entry jobs could work.  My aunt is a medical transcriptionist, so the next time I see her I think I’m going to pick her brain and find out what it’s really like to work from home.  How do you get the information?  Is it just emailed to you, or do you log on to a network or website and work from there?  And I need to do more research into exactly what kind of work is out there.


While I now know that this is what I want, I know it’s not going to happen right away.  I’m thinking of it as like a 5-year plan.  But then again once I get my mind set on something I tend to follow through with it, so who knows.  And nothing says that I have to buy the land and build the house at the same time.  I could just buy the land and then build the house later.
And in the next couple weeks I want to run up north and see what that area is like first hand.  If I don’t like it, then I don’t.  And now is the perfect time of year to check things out with the leaves changing and everything.
And I’m thinking I might want to start doing one of those stay at home jobs.  Only part-time in the evenings for now, just to put some money in the bank.  Otherwise it would take forever to save the money I would need.  And it would give me a real feel for what that work is like before I jump in with both feet.

So that’s what my busy mind has been up to lately.  I still need to do alot of research before anything is definite, but this is where I seem to be heading.  It seems like I’ve been making lots of changes lately.  But I think they are for the better.  I certainly feel more alive lately, rather then just floating along.  I wonder if the person I was two years ago would have ever thought how different my life would be now.
That’s the way life should be, right?  We should all be able to get our dreams.

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Posted by on October 13, 2008 in Home, Life Changes, Spiritual, Work


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